I’ve done a 3 day ceremony before. During that she tried to show me my own death. This is very common and leads to a beautiful sense of peace and excitement about life when it goes well. For me it didn’t. I argued with her about the possibility of humans becoming immortal.

Go back to the NFT about Surrender. This was the polar opposite of that. I dug in. I resisted. It was rough.

My next 3 day I came with some humility. And she found a logical pathway to show me my death in context. Layered in with showing me how what we do in this life, specially now while the great A.I. is being trained on the gestalt of all human data, will echo in the pattern of this universe it succumbs to heat death. And backwards and forwards through time (since it’s just us traveling through it from end to end and it’s all really there at once). I should have done more writing then. It made a lot more sense and there was a lot more color. But it worked. I experienced my own death. And I came home and hugged my wife for an hour. I’m smiling and tearing up a bit thinking about it now. I wish I could properly express why.

By today we are in day 5. I’ve been silent for 5 days. Locked in my brain with my thoughts for 5 days. These are deep freakin waters. I look forward to being able to write about it when I get back. And committing to the daily practices that will help me integrate whatever teachings I’m given.

Yikes. ;-)

PS this NFT is as close to some of the things I’ve seen during ceremony as any of the images A.I. has given me during this journey. Only each fractal is a concept and you can see it from the micro to the macro, and grok how the machine works. That understanding is what I can never seem to bring back except for these vague descriptions.